It's been a long day and it's only half done.

I don't know what it is about today. I'm totally in a fog.

It was a really long night last night. Noah got up every three hours and one time he didn't go back to bed for hour and 15 min. He was having a great time sucking on his fingers making smacking noises with his mouth but then getting hungry from it so he would get fussy and I would have to rock him back to sleep. But then I got him to knock out. I was so happy. Finely I could go back to bed... but NO! I had to get a dry throat and cough causing him to be WIDE awake again...
End result? I'm very tired!
But of course, every day is a battle of 'what do I have time for?' and 'what do I have energy for?'
He's not at the age yet where you can sit him in front of toys and he will have a great time playing with them. I need to get engaged with him other wise he'll get bored and cry.. So a long shower will have to wait... till daddy gets back, ha. So when he's down to sleep, I wash and fill endless bottles. I wash and fold his laundry. Take care of the dirty diapers that are everywhere. Restock the nursery in prep for the night. Or if I'm really tired, I push it all off and write in my blog.
Although it's hard not having daddy here to help, I love it. He is the most cute and precious little thing that I have ever seen. I know this sounds bad, but I love watching him cry, but only for a little bit. It's adorable. He makes this pouting noise that kills me. I know he'll get his way alot when older.
But today? I don't want to do anything :( I miss my husband. I REALLY want him home so bad. I miss his company. I know were getting close, but it feels worse then when we had four months to go. Weired I know. It feels like a long stretch of time between calls and when he does call I forget everything I want to say!!
Even though I WISH I could crawl into bed and not come out till he is home... I'm a mommy now and I gotta push my butt out the door and take Noah to the park and get more bottles so I'm not constantly washing them all the time. That's my plan for today. And maybe get on to dental.. haha.

Day two: Favorite movie

Honestly, I don't really have a favorite movie. I can't think of any :^/ I used to LOVE Elizabethtown. I could watch that movie a million time, but now that I'm married and have a baby, the thought of watching it bores me.
But, if I had to choose a movie to watch right now, it would be anything Michael and I loved to watch together. It makes me feel like he's not so far away. Like Monsters VS Aliens. Haha.

I love: The Sound of Music, Audrey Hepburn films, Huphrey Bogart Films, Christian films, Imax films, stuff like that...

BUT!! My most favorite movies are the homemade ones!!! I can watch those ALL the time.

30 days of me: Favorite song

My favorite song (Right now) is "That's what I love about Sunday" by Craig Mogan.

It reminds me of a much simpler life that I want so bad with my husband.

Church, fishing, family & friends, napping.

When I listen to this song, I can almost feel myself in Michael's arms "on the porch swing" watching Noah play in the grass.

Is he home yet??

Introduction

It's interesting to me how when I see the open "about me" box and I leave it blank not knowing at all how to sum my life up.

So what about me??

Well, I'm a 22 year old who lives in California, living under the same roof that my mom brought me home in. I love California but there is such a large part of me that wants something completely different then the city and beach. It all seems so loose.. Like the people and the places don't have any roots. So how could I place roots somewhere where I feel like the next breeze could whisk me and my family away? Or maybe it's just my home situation that makes me feel that now :^/ ?

On that note, I am married to a wonderful, gorgeous (and might I add, sexy) husband Michael. Our marriage is new, 10 months today in fact, and I see our future bright and clear as the first time I layed eyes on him. Together we have a beautiful son named Noah who is honestly the glimmer in my eyes. I feel like I gave birth to my heart and soul. Michael and I are Baptists who put God above everything else. Without Him, all else will crumble. He is our foundation. Our rock. Our shelter in life's storms. I would surely be nothing without these three men in my life.

Now we all have troubles in our lives. Something that we're all getting through. I'm not going to sit here and write "Oh my life is so perfect" because no ones life is.
I'm going through my first deployment with my husband. I believe we will come out more strong then we ever have. It has put us through challenges and obstacles and I'll tell you now, we conquered it all. I can proudly say that my husband is coming home to me and our son and I cant wait for his arms around me and the weight of his lips on mine. I can taste it already.

So, dealing with deployment and my own inner struggles of my severe need for Independence and my own place with my own family, away from the things that I don't want to have to witness, I would have to say Michael's coming home couldn't come a day sooner.

But!! In the mean time, I will stay on Face Book praying for that little green circle to light up, telling me that my husband is safe and we are able to talk again. And I will change every poopy diaper, make 3-4 late night bottles, deal with Noah's cranky-ness in the evening and put everyone of his needs before mine every day until my husband comes home where I can share the load. I need to remind myself that I AM indeed a woman and Michael's wife who dresses up and puts care into herself. I tend to forget that when he is away.
I pray that September passes and Summer fades quickly. I'm ready for some pumpkin picking, outdoor ice skating, mall shopping, sushi eating, Noah kissing time with my Husband.